so I’m converting my garage into an art studio / work office which I’m reallyreallyexcited about. Like, I feel like, once completed, I will finally have a place that I can go to and just express myself freely. A place where I can paint it any color I want, I can escape my family (for a bit), I can do my work and be in a totally creative environment. I guess I didn’t realize until dreaming of this studio that I haven’t actually ever been in a place where I can just express myself however I choose to and it’s really exciting to have a place to do it.

It’s not big and it’s a pretty run-down garage, but I’m stoked. It’ll be such a great place to photograph items for a vintage shop I’m opening on etsy (yay!) and a great place to actually focus on things at hand instead of hoping I can do it in my bedroom which is fastly being overrun by canvases and other various crafting utensils. 

*sigh* this concludes a short update…I’ve been MIA a little these last 2 weeks. I hope you guys are doing great. :)

so…the other night, I was on my laptop computer, just laying on the floor, andsmokestarted coming out of the vent thing. I almost had a heart attack and turned it off straight away and now it won’t work.

well, so yeah…I graduated from college today and now the impending doom of unemployment and amounting to nothing is pretty crippling right now. :/ I think I may just go to bed…

I feel like everything is going to change for me this summer. I’m going to make it happen. I can’t stay in this funk anymore.

I don’t know if anyone cares…

I don’t know if anyone cares or not, but I’ve been thinking a lot in the past few days about deleting my tumblr…not just my tumblr but deleting a lot of websites that I am a part of. Do you ever just feel super stretched on the internet?

I have, to my knowledge, : a pinterest, a twitter, a tumblr, a blogger, a facebook, an inactive myspace (I can’t quite figure out to delete that stupid thing!), a wordpress (for a class), a flickr, etc. I have them all.

And tbh, I’m exhausted. I think because I was born in a time where we didn’t have any of that stuff, where the internet wasn’t as accessible, I keep going back to how I survived back then. I was fine. I didn’t stress about people commenting on things or liking things I wrote or posted. I communicated to people by calling them on the phone or talking to them. I didn’t text flirt with boys (I’m guilty of this), I didn’t have entire conversations on text or fb chat (I’ve done it before). 

I understand the value of these things though, don’t get me wrong…I’ve met some amazing people on the internet and I’ve met awesome guys on the internet, but I just feel that I don’t communicate as well with the people around me because I’m so engrossed on the internet.

I’m still thinking about what I need to do, for myself, but I feel awful because I feel as if I’m wasting my life in front of a computer. I spend my time (a lot of time) tumbling, blogging, etc…and I have nothing to show for it. I don’t hang out with the friends I have irl, I don’t spend time with my roomies, I don’t read as many books, I don’t paint, draw, crochet, etc etc. 

I just need to figure things out and I may just disappear for awhile, until I clear my head. I just wanted to give people a heads up just so…IDK…you would know what was going on?

/endrant

ok guys…I need a new show to watch. I finished up Twin Peaks, finally! Any suggestions? Old and new shows work too.

I legitimately just quoted Doctor Who in one the biggest papers of my semester : “A Comparison Between Andy Warhol & Vincent van Gogh.”